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They’re so cute when they’re young then they grow up sometimes the mirror image of the parents that teach them I spent the first 5 years of my first son’s life being a model to him now I know I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to undo that modeling when he uses sarcasm I see my self when he plays practical jokes at inappropriate times I see myself when he screams at his younger brother I see myself at the most inappropriate times he will do the most inappropriate things not in a mean spirited way just in the way that his daddy does it he is truly my teacher I see his behavior and I know where I must change I must present a better example when first a parent for the first time it is unknown to both moms and dads the extent to which the young little life forms will imitate everything we do and everything we think and everything we are we have no one to blame for how our kids turn out than ourselves I love these people that want to rely on the schools or the government to teach their kids because it starts and ends in the home it starts and ends with the caregivers I can remember as a young boy I couldn’t wait to be grown up enough to smoke because my dad smoked and when I did choose to smoke I puffed on the same brand as he did but it is the more insidious parental traits that seep into our dna that can cause us trouble in our adult lives until recently when I got angry at anyone I would just shut down turn off all my outward emotions and sometimes fall asleep just like my dad used to do it took some deep soul searching to connect the dots and realize that I had to choose who I wanted to be with the help of my wife who is a very understanding woman I have learned to trust my emotions trust that I can express my emotions and won’t get laughed at or scolded or won’t hurt anyone because I feel deeply and passionately