Topaz and Trust

Well I'll be damned
here comes your ghost again
after so long a time
it feels so very fine
with no need for regret.

When you burst on the scene
so dark and exotic
your voice so melodic
your spirit a shade of green
but your mind was supreme.

Your total essence
announced your originality;
It was a presence
so far from banality

that only few could see.

You captured my heart
and inspired my art
with your searching mind,
we were one-of-a-kind
stumbling thru the dark.

But I allowed my fear

of true intimacy

to interfere

with a blissful destiny.

And in so doing

I cursed

the gods

of chemistry.

And here we are

Alone together again
We've come so far

ever ready to mend.

But underneath it all

we desire connection,
and underneath it all

we desire selection.

And in the aftermath

we fight against the current,

And in the aftermath

we wish upon a star,,,

Friendship

"Let me make this clear," he said to her.
"I am no longer looking for a gratis room from you. Our friendship has moved beyond that; or at least that's how I feel."

She bobbed her head left to right
in a vain effort to part her shortish blunt bangs,
eyes dropping from a direct gaze to a distracted wander,
a wander borne not of boredom or disinterest,
but of a crackling energy that must
absorb and process all available stimuli
every nanosecond.

Her eyes lifted from the table,
darted to the cat, or at least the ghost of the cat,
and took in the entirety of that offered by
visible light, as well as by the other known senses --
and some yet unknown, I'm sure.

And then her eyes met mine again. 

I noted that her bangs had merely swished back and forth
with no appreciable difference from their starting point.

Cassie is an amazing woman. Strong of character, strong of will, steadfast in resistance yet vulnerable enough to invite and accept uncertainty.

Diamonds and Lust

While I’ll be damned
I’m haunted by your ghost again
a specter I so want to please
whose sadness makes me freeze
all ambitions of my own.

I made a silent pact
to keep you out of lack,
that you'd see the cup half full,
and love this carefree fool,
but it cost me my soul.

You took what I gave
and it made you brave,
but when I wanted the same
it was my mama you blamed,
and I suffered alone.

I just needed a friend
to help me blend
my hopes and fears.
What I got instead
was fantastic head
and silent tears.

Your desire to please
while on your knees
was commendable.
It paved the way
for my salty spray
to be expendable.

Cupping my balls
and sucking my straw
'til I glazed your tits.
And in return
I made you squirm
licking your clit.

Your cries of pleasure
were the measure
of my self worth.
Nothing was better
than your pussy wetter
than Mother Earth.

But I had other plans
apart from sex glands
That needed exposure.
My desire to write
was treated as trite
and I was a loser.

But the plan from the start
was to cushion your heart
from the ravages of doubt.
Then you'd believe in me
and finally see
what I'm all about.

But you abandoned me
in my soliloquy
siting Freudian reasons.
Now we're splitting up,
Damn your half-empty cup!
And your cock pleasin'.

All I can say
is that it doesn't pay
to delay your dreams,
for another's memes.
'cause above all else
be true to yourself.